the tanners

humph

2011-08-10T11:24:00.000-07:00

I am having one of those days where no matter how deep of a breath I take, I don't feel like I can breath. Do you ever have that? You're not really sad, mad, upset, just a little bummed out. And you just can't put your finger on why....you just want to be wrapped up in a big hug and have them squeeze all that "humph" out of you.... Just a thought....

Summer

2011-06-30T13:17:00.000-07:00

I love summer! love love love love it! I tend to get this way when the seasons truely change ( not like the fake change, where it's warm for like a week and then it snows...) and you're wrapped up in the middle of something new and wonderful. Well I'm there folks...drenched in the smell of freshly cut grass, sounds of sprinklers and crickets, kids with side walk chalk, freckled kissed noses and shoulders, sleeping with the windows open, bonfires, smores, fishing, staying up WAY too late because you refuse to let the moment you are in pass you by and being ok with rolling out of bed, jumping into "work clothes" and not caring the tinnest bit that you have no make up on because EVERYONE looks better during the summer. The feeling of sticky hands and face after you dive into the best piece of watermelon you swear you've ever had, holding your breath and closing your eyes as tight as you possibly can while you spray your face with bug spray because even though the bugs are thick by the pond, you're not going to let that drive you away.
There's something that happens to the soul when you let the land of grown ups slip away and you choose to stay in a Never-Neverland of summer bliss. You know that place...that place where you forget how old you are, or what you have going on the next day and you just LIVE...you don't balance, or juggle, or budget, you just let loose and breath. So my dear friends...go out and breath in all that summer goodness...because i know that's what I'll be doing :)

Numbers Shmumbers

2010-12-13T08:22:00.000-08:00

With my birthday coming and going this past Friday, it caused me to reflect on a few things. What I found myself pondering was: Have I allowed numbers to "take over" my life? Birthdays for some reason have always been hard for me. When I was 9 years old I actually cried because it was my last year as a single digit, after 9 it was double digits from there on out. This year, I found myself getting a little down just like every other year...but this year something changed.

I realized that instead of enjoying the journey I was mourning the passing of another year. Once that hit me, I started thinking about other flaws in my thinking...my body image hindered on my weight, instead of health and activity. My intelligence was limited by the earning of a degree. My workout wasn't successful unless I trashed a certain number of calories. The list goes on and on. I was weighing my worth in so many areas according to numbers. So this year, I'm going to push the numbers aside, and not worry about age. I'm going to swim because I enjoy it, I'm going to learn how to like running, I'm going to pick up the violin again and play it without worrying if I'm "good enough." I'm going to paint and put it up in my house, because I like it and not hide it because what if someone doesn't. I'm going to speak Spanish and not be afraid of how many verbs I conjugate incorrently. I'm going to live and love it, instead of measuring it.

I'm Back!

2010-12-01T18:46:00.000-08:00

After struggling with my old blog, I decided it was time to start fresh! Apparently I'm a little handicapped when it comes to things like this...which is hard to admit. Oh well....

Colby and I have moved to a wonderful townhome down in Spanish Fork. We love having the extra space! Our neighboors are all so kind, and we really couldn't be happier. We have a dog named Teddy that we bought last May and he has become our nightly entertainment. He is such a character!

We are doing the same old stuff, school, work, trying to remember what it's like to have a social life. Colby is especially busy with school, work, studying for the MCAT and training for a marathon. I really don't know how he does it...

That's it for now, not to much, but I'll be more regular for now on with this wonderful blogging. Chao!